N3- Missed it by just 3 marks

N3- Missed it by just 3 marks

      N3 results were out. I desperately wanted to clear this stage but unfortunately I failed in just 3 marks.  Failing by itself is depressing, adding to the torture was the fact that I had missed it by merely three marks. 95 is the pass mark and I had scored only 92.  Out of 180 , I had passed in all sections such as reading, vocabulary and listening.  But I could not get the aggregate required to clear the level.  I was very depressed.  Not clearing this level also meant that I had missed the opportunity to demand a salary of 50k to 60k. 

          My first thoughts after the results were highly depressing and I began cursing life.

          It took only moments for me to will back my spirits and enthusiasm. I began to be highly motivated by my indomitable will and high spirit and the “ARVIND” was back.  I nailed and killed my depression.  I decided that I was the Hercules of motivation and resolved to work even harder the next time I write this exam. 

       Also while I was preparing for N3, I coached two software engineers for N4. The fact that they had passed N4 injected optimism in to my present.  Though I claimed I was only a strategist and had just cleared their doubts, given them assignments, given them rare materials and had not got involved in full teaching, my friend told me that language teaching requires only this, for language is something one has to be learnt all by oneself. 

Now I am consumed by my desire to succeed in N3 and I am repeating to myself the following words,

“There isn’t a thing I can’t do, only things I haven’t tried yet ”

Originally published on Tuesday, September 2, 2014